Sometimes I think..

Sometimes I look at the magazines that come in the mail, and at the t.v. shows that come on at night and think...

Wow, I could do better.

I could write a better script.
I could write a better song.
I could design a better outfit.
I could sing much better than half the kids on American Idol this year.. I'm just too damn old.

What the heck has happened to American culture?? Am I just getting old and crotchety, or has real talent and creativity gone down the tubes?

Or maybe everyone else's parents discouraged them too. Maybe no one in my generation actually took their talents seriously.

I wish I had. If I had followed my original dream, I could have been blazing a creative trail right now. Instead I am doing a boring desk job because it's stable, putting my writing, music, and art on a back burner because I don't have time for it, and regretting it already.

Who knows what it will feel like 5 years from now? But it's a good 10 years too late for me. My time for flying by the seat of my pants is long gone.

So. Suck it up and deal with it, eh?

So Busy.. Only Time for Kitties

The Duck is a lovely centerpiece..

Those gold/orange eyes are kinda freaky though.. He is thinking interesting thoughts.
Monster Head is busy being comfortable.
He has been feeling very snuggly lately. I wish I could bring him to work with me..

February List

It's list time again (It's always list time around here..)

1) I went back to work today. I lasted about 5 hours.

2) I have to last longer than that tomorrow.. I have an interview, and I have to be able to knock their socks off. Not an easy task when recovering from the Monster-Flu.

3) Speaking of Monsters, mine is yowling now (along with the Duck) because he didn't want to go out to the garage for the night. Unfortunately he had to, because he and Duckie can't leave me alone at night. Monster would spend the whole night either trying to open the bedroom door, or if he succeeded at getting in, licking and grooming my hair or lying his large, loaf-like self on my head while I tried to sleep. This cannot be tolerated for obvious reasons (the main one being suffocation).

4) I'm almost done writing thank-you notes from the wedding! 50-something down, only 7 to go! My hands are tired. I don't think I have written this much by hand in at least ten years. Maybe 15.. it was before I had a computer, I can tell you that.

5) Finally got the Social Security card today! Now maybe I can get the giant, snarling mess that is HR straightened out about what my name actually IS.

6) I actually cooked a real dinner for myself this evening. I rarely ever cook if I'm by myself, but I did today. I figured I needed some real food that didn't come from a can or a bag. I made sauteed chicken breast with garlic and green onion and olive oil, with rice pilaf, pine nuts, and a spinach salad. Yum.

7) And speaking of food, if any of you dear readers EVER hear me suggest eating fast food again (other than Chick-fil-A), please force feed me steak until I regain my senses. I ate a burger from Sonic the other day because I was too sick to stand at the stove long enough to cook (and I was at the drug store anyway). Wow, I only thought I was sick with the flu. Try the flu on top of greasy, smelly, nasty fast-food nausea! Yecch!

8) But I still like cherry-lime-ade.

9) This is the longest list I have done in a very long time.

10) Has PR stopped allowing comments on his blog??

Ok, I have long since entered a fade for the day. Time to get in the amazing electric bed and try to get my snooze on.

P.S.; 11) American Idol: The girls are awesome this year (except for a few of them). But the guys.. only three of them really seem to have talent. Nick A is my favorite so far..

Ok, that's really enough. Going. Now. To get my snooze on.

The Flu

I really hate the flu.

I have been out of work all week with it. I can't really seem to do anything without being exhausted within a few minutes. I went to get a burger at Sonic earlier (yuck, what was I thinking??) and felt like I had run a marathon by the time I got back.

I just didn't feel like cooking, and I was out of canned soup. I should have had macaroni & cheese or something, because now my stomach feels all queasy and gross on top of the rest of the flu symptoms.

I hope I can go back to work tomorrow. I have an interview on Friday to be ready for!

My V-Day Presents and Other Interesting Pictures

Here's what L got for me for Valentine's Day:

I love the heart bracelet! And the necklace is very heavy silver. The pearls match the other bracelet he gave me for my birthday last year. :-)
These are the new shoes I bought on Friday. They were on sale for $38.. they had been $100 at Macy's before. :-) I think they are very cute, especially the ribbon ties!

Quote

"This is the true joy in life, the being used for a purpose recognized by yourself as a mighty one; the being thoroughly worn out before you are thrown on the scrap heap; the being a force of nature instead of a feverish selfish little clod of ailments and grievances complaining that the world will not devote itself to making you happy."
--George Bernard Shaw

Do YOU Ever Feel..

..like a human toxic waste dump? Does it seem like people only want to talk to you about all the negatives in their lives? Does it seem like any time YOU have a bad day, that no one wants to listen?

..like no one really has time for you? In general, people are fine with the status quo as long as you are doing something for them, but when it's time to return the favor, everyone suddenly has other plans.

..like you know the way you feel is pretty dumb, but you can't stop feeling that way?

..like everything in your life is in limbo and no resolution is in sight?


If you do feel like this, ...well you're weird then. I've certainly never felt that way. (How do you type a smiley face rolling its eyes in blatant sarcasm??)

I need to go see Trigger.

Monday Monday

I am annoyed with MySpace right now. It WILL NOT let me upload any wedding pictures for some reason. Ordinarily this would not bother me, as MySpace is not really a priority for me.. but several of L's cousins from Louisiana wanted to see some pics, and I can't get them to upload.. until I have time to edit the files to make them smaller.

I'll put that on the list behind the 420,000 other things I need to be doing right now. :-[

I am also annoyed because I came home from work and cooked for an hour and a half and not only did my recipe not turn out the way I wanted it to (my potatoes were not fluffy enough and it's more like soup than shepherd's pie), but then L got all snippy about my wanting to have a particular picture in the wedding album that he had deleted from the list.

Whatever. Who cares? It's not the end of the world, and it's not like we aren't going to have 25 other albums. So I just left it out.

And now I have to go work on thank-you notes, or they will NEVER get done.

Did I mention that I am slightly annoyed??

All I Have Time For is Lists

So here you go, today's list:

1) Date night last night was Checkov's The Seagull at the Warehouse Theatre. Very interesting, and I must say that I had forgotten how much I enjoyed live theatre, in the round. The coffee was terrible though.

2) That fluffy baby blue bathrobe I got for Christmas was great until I realized that now everything I own is covered in little baby blue fluff balls that adhere to other fabric like super glue. :-[

3) I am beginning to seriously resent my to-do list. Everything on it is important and HAS to be done, and I have time for none of it, basically.

4) We are in dire need of groceries!

5) V-Day is this week.. I've got L a little present, but I want to get something else. As usual, i have NO IDEA what else to get him.

And now I'm off to see the Trigger at last..

Ready to Run

I need about three days. If I had an extra three days this week to do stuff I need to do, I might actually get caught up.

As it is, there is pretty much no hope. Oh well.

I don't even have anything interesting to say except for:

1) Debt collectors are bad enough when they are attempting to collect a debt that you actually owe.. they're even worse when they're calling you about someone else's debt that has nothing to do with you. Ten times worse if they are unethical, dishonest, misleading, and nasty.
The particular gentleman who had the misfortune of calling me should read his FDCPA very carefully.

2) I miss Trigger. I never get to see him anymore. :-(

Random List for the Disenfranchised

1) I always wanted to say "disenfranchised." Makes me think of someone stealing a chain of McDonalds' or something.

2) Taxes. Yeesh!

3) Hot pink is a good color this evening.

4) I would rather dig ditches than go to the DMV again this year.

5) New sheets are awesome. 620 thread count = very comfy.

6) I am boycotting chicken for the rest of the week. I am SICK of chicken right now. (Chick fil A for lunch, chicken for dinner tonight, chicken for dinner two nights ago, chicken for lunch on Saturday, cluck cluck cluckety cluck! I need some STEAK.

And now, I am off to bed.
Tomorrow: Insanity at work! Again!

Date Night!

Tonight L and I went to see "The Bucket List."
If you see no other movie this year, see this one. It is that good. You might want to take some kleenex though. Even L was crying at the end.

After the movie, we went to dinner at a tiny little Italian place called Giovanni's. They had 15 tables in there, tops, and the proprietor and all of the staff had thick Italian accents. It was like a restaurant you see in the movies.. the Godfather or something. The food was excellent beyond all expectations, and we had a great time.

Date night rocks...