I'm Still Here

Not quite dead yet. Just pregnant. ;-)

Maybe there's something to blog about after all...

A List.. because I know you want one

1) It's Sunday

2) I need Groceries

3) French Press Coffee is Delicious

4) Banana Bread or Cupcakes? Cupcakes or Banana Bread??

5) What does L want for Valentine's Day?!?

6) Why do I stress about Valentine's Day anyway?

7) Ok, so it's a short list. At least it's something new.. LOL

I never update this thing..

I'm thinking about discontinuing Dysfunction Junction. As much as I love the name and everything ;-) I never update here anymore, and since I don't really have a theme here, I find that there is not much I want to post.

The old pics were funny.. but TIME is the issue.

Thinking...

Time Goes By

I always decide that I'm going to blog every day again.. or at least more often.. and then the next time I remember or have a chance to do it, a month has gone by! Oh well. Not that I have too many disappointed readers or anything. ;-)

Today I am thinking about workplace politics and how utterly weird people are. Seriously, adults are just 4-year-olds with money. I am continually amazed by the general stupidity that goes on every day. I don't see it in my department as much because I think we all have at least a modicum of sense.. but in other areas.. honestly I wonder how the organization has survived this long!

Organizations always have more problems the bigger they are, though. The leadership becomes disconnected from the actual work or product or output of the organization, and they make decisions based on self interest, popular opinion, or misinformation, without considering the ramifications. People at the lower end of the totem pole disengage, check out, and just clock in for a paycheck. There's no pride in doing a good job or anything.. just a stupid sense of entitlement. The few who do actually care about doing a good job or improving the company are quickly jettisoned or are beaten into submission (or worse, apathy).

Eventually the poorest performers are promoted to leadership, where they take a bad problem and make it worse. And eventually the people who actually care (at all levels) move on.

Please, God, let me move on.

So..

I only seem to write here when I'm irritated about something. Why is that?

I seem to be having a hard time adjusting to being done with the major huge projects this semester. Now that I have free time, I feel like I should be doing something, like I've forgotten about something important. And I wake up at night feeling like I've missed something and it's going to come bite me in the a$$.

Oh well. I guess that will improve with time.. I'm very excited about finishing grad school, and finishing the marathon on June 6, and getting back to the things I enjoy.. riding, music, art..

*sigh*

Annoying List

1) Ya know when someone has a problem with you, and they are too cowardly to tell you so.. but that doesn't stop them from making remarks to other people? It's actually worse when it's repeated to you than if they'd said it themselves. Just say it. I'd respect you more, and you wouldn't look like such a jerk. And we might actually come to understand each other!

2) Why does everything have to be a hassle? Why can't ANYTHING just go as planned???

3) What would you pick: big risk that would make you very happy if it worked, or staying in the same place because it isn't that bad (better the devil you know than the devil you don't)? I am beginning to think that the big risk is the way to go.

4) Pollen. Just saying.

WTF?

There's something I want to know about people.

See, I know what it's like to be stressed out and to take out your frustrations on someone who doesn't deserve it. But at least I feel it coming on most of the time, and I make a conscious effort NOT to do it. Believe it or not, there are a LOT of times that I keep my mouth shut when I really want to let someone have it.

Why do I seem to catch so much crap from other people, when I try my best to NOT return the favor?

If you're wondering WTF, here's the backstory:

I went to the barn yesterday to see Trigger, and he had a pretty big cut on his neck. It had some kind of medicine on it, and between that and the scab, it really looked like it had been stitched. I didn't have my glasses on, and I didn't do a full-on inspection of it.. I just called to see if maybe something had happened while I was out of town.

I wasn't upset at all, because even if something HAD happened, I trust my friend's judgment. Well he came out there, even after I looked closer at it while we were on the phone and said, ya know what, never mind, I was wrong. It's nothing, don't worry about it.

And then he screamed at me in front of other people at the barn, basically said I was stupid and told me to go to hell.

Now with most people, I'd roll my eyes and say I'll go if you go first. But this person is someone I respected and frankly expected a lot more from than that. I don't think I've ever heard him say a four-letter word in all the time I've known him. I cried all night, like a 12-year-old girl. And that pisses me off.

I didn't deserve it and I'm tired of taking people's crap day in and day out. My job involves a measure of that by definition, and I can deal with it there because it comes with the territory. But I'll be damned if I'll listen to that from my friends too.

So yeah, the world's on notice. If you have a big steaming pile of toxic s*** to dump, find someone else to dump it on. I'm full up.

I'm signed up...

My Fundraising Page

I'm signed up for the 2010 San Diego Marathon. Now I have to raise some cash...

Riddle me this..

1) Why does the shit always seem to hit the fan all at once?
2) Why is it that the harder you work to get ahead, the farther behind you seem to get?
3) Is there really any way to tell someone politely that they need to get out of your face and let you get something accomplished for a change? LOL

Oh well. Sometimes you just need a good laugh.

And then there was a list

1) Got to finish Christmas shopping. Almost done, but not quite.

2) Hate hate hate work right now. Something has to make this easier to deal with. :-[ Actually separating my personal life from my job would be a good start.

3) I want to hit the gym really hard. It would be a good outlet for my building frustration.. but I find it more frustrating that I don't have time.

4) Half my grades are posted. Still got a 4.0!! Come on, Dr. M, post my other A for this semester!!

5) I don't know what #5 is. Don't care either.

:-)
More to come, when I have time...

Spinx Half Marathon

13.2 miles in 2:24:48 (chip time)

I'm still sore. But I did it! :-D

This is a sad state of affairs

August 1? Really? LOL I have definitely neglected my blog. But oh well. I'm lucky to be keeping up with work and school.

random thoughts for the day:

1) Why do all deadlines seem to fall at the same time?! Along with a few major holidays and birthdays and stuff? WHY?

2) "No" isn't a bad word. It's much better than saying "Yes" when you don't mean it.

3) Pain makes me mean. Even after I take medicine for it.. the mean stays after the pain takes a rest. Why is that?

4) Why is it so hard to stop worrying about things over which I have no control?

Mehhh.
Trying to get better (ear infection, sinus infection, and costochondritis according to the doctor yesterday) for the half marathon on Saturday..

Randomness

Ok so I am thinking about the blog lately and what I can do with it. I haven't been posting lately, and it's just sitting here in cyberspace, doing nothing.

I was thinking about a cooking blog, or even art? Maybe both? I should do something here on a regular basis though.. any ideas??

Long Lost List

Random Things for This Morning:

1) I ran 4 miles in 39 minutes and 35 seconds last night. Fastest run of over 5K to date. Rrrrroar.

2) Extreme heat is not conducive to productivity in the office.

3) Neither is more work for less pay with less support staff. Someone take notes.

4) House cats have it made. So do house dogs, for that matter.

5) Trigger needs new shoes.

Well I should post something I guess..

Yes, I have horribly neglected the blog in the last few months. Facebook always seems to keep me busy during Internet-time. ;-). Getting ready for graduation on Thursday...

DIshes

These are the dishes I love.. I want to get a new set of everyday dishes.. but these are SO expensive...

The latest stuff around here..

Arrrrrrr

Well. That is a pirate-like title.

Actually it describes my state of mind at the moment.

I don't like it when I lose my temper. But sometimes it is absolutely unavoidable.
I honestly think that if I said what I felt even 50% of the time, a lot of people would really hate me.

It isn't that I expect too much or that I am really angry about anything most of the time. But damn, certain things just flip my switch!!!!!

And the scary part is that lately I just don't care. I really want to say what's on my mind. It's getting harder to keep my mouth shut.

But
One thing I have to say is that the above certainly fuels my running! I am one tough beeyotch when I put those shoes on. :-D

Alas, Poor Crocs..

Monster Head and Duckie have wreaked (wreaken? Wrocked? What exactly IS the past tense of "wreak"??) havoc again.

They got hold of L's new crocs and now he has teeth marks on both toes and both heels. Luckily they were caught before reducing L's birthday present to confetti, like they did his Tevas.

His other birthday presents arrived as well, but I am going to take one item back. I ordered what looked like the coolest pair of shorts for him online.. when they got here, they are man-pris... culottes for men.. and so HUGE that they look like a castoff from Biggest Loser, Week 0. Seriously, they are hideous. He likes the shirts tho...

Well Since I Haven't Been ON Here..

I've been spending most of my online time with Facebook these days, or else on the Pfitness site, posting workouts and complaining about my knee. ;-)

The lion's share of my time these days, though, is either work or school. I'll be really glad when I get these papers finished up and I can concentrate on something else. I've still got a long way to go, though. :-\ I definitely do need to spend some time in the library at Clemson.

Today I think I am going to see Trigger. His rain rot is going away and his summer coat is coming in much darker than usual. He is going to look really pretty this year, I think. :-)

Last night was Les's birthday party. We had fun.. I gave him a pair of fur lined crocs. LOL He has always said he would never wear crocs, but he has them on as I type this, so I guess they are comfortable enough to override any persistent style issues. ;-)