Fork Me, I'm Done

Ok.

I have been struggling lately.

I think that every so often, we all go through a "crossroads" period, where we are forced to reevaluate our lives, our relationships with others, and our very perceptions of ourselves. I think that's what has been going on for me over the last few months.

It was brought on by some major life events, an overwhelming sense of inertia, and some relationships that are obviously and blatantly unhealthy the way they are. I've made some major decisions, a few of which have been very, very painful. It is hard to accept that some things are never going to work out the way they should, or the way I want them to. The same people are always going to react to me in the same way, and no amount of self-deprecation, bribery, or trying to please said people is going to change that.

It's time to value and celebrate the good things in my life (even if I am the only one who appreciates them), and throw the garbage out where it belongs.

The Honeymoon couldn't come at a better time. I am going to be away from everything in my life (except my husband, of course, who is one of the good things..lol) for more or less three weeks. Lots of time to get the switch flipped over to "Positive" and figure out how to handle the phasing out of certain negative things and relationships in a kind, reasonable, and balanced way.

I'll post pics when I get back, of course. Lots and lots of pics.